Thursday, May 28, 2009

why i never went elsewhere

Had long self deliberations when I finished my class XII and had both engineering and medicine seats on offer in top institutes.

I was 12 years younger; so guess my brain should have been in a better shape undamaged by all these medical literature

One of the reasons I dint take up engg was that I dint want to entertain any thoughts of going away from my parents (I was not even ready to move to a hostel!) apart from the fact that I dint have any aptitude for engineering

By joining medicine, I banished any chances of me moving far from my parents as early as within 4- 5 years( that was the time  everyone was going onsite  as if it was boarding an EMU to Beach)

The primary reason of not wanting to move away from my parents was the issue of being near them, when they need you- I know a lot of parents who are proud to say that their kids are doing great abroad. Their kids earn well , send them money , buy property in posh locales, call them daily , pamper them in all all ways staying away, but when you  get the parents  to talk freely , u will definitely get the answer that most of them would prefer them to be here with them and that they miss something inspite of having a lot . I never wanted to put my parents in that position

About six years as medical undergraduate and intern meant I was not moving anywhere for that period. And I also had a false impression that life would be a bed of roses after MBBS. But that soon became a mirage seeing the need for PG

Even in UG period there were a few temptations like PLAB and USMLE.

I am sure even then I was not swaying towards that thought due to my primary reason apart from those choices needing quite an investment then. Anyway I had the confidence in me and God (more on Him) that I will get a good PG course. And luckily he gave me a good speciality where I will be able to earn decent early as well as stay in the city with my parents. Now I don’t have any regrets for not having gone out so far

Serious reasons apart ,others are

Never comfortable with the idea of missing home food ( if you look at my weight for height , you will know) and for the fact that  I should be having one of the most fragile gastric mucosa- it cant take tea for two days together- so no obvious interest in trying out new cuisines or so

Cant bear the cold climes I guess- I shriver at 18  degrees in an AC room- am more at home in the furnace that’s Chennai( hope I am not hypothyroid)

Don’t need a lot of money, as I never learnt the habit of spending and shameful fact being that my spending pattern has not changed between the dependent days and now. but one thing is definite - more money is more pain

Traveling far is a dream that I have a few times; but its stayed a dream because once I need to implement that dream, I become the laziest guy on earth – I actually prefer to travel virtually!!!- seeing on TV and net and transferring myself there!!

Challenges - those are things that are best enjoyed on the TV- i like to keep my life simple, uncomplicated

Silly fears  being - not wanting to die falling from  a plane; not wanting to die in another country; not getting caught by the law of the land(foreign)- as shown in a lot of movies; going without food / getting sick there; not wanting to be at the brunt of racist attacks

Anyways most people  go outside country  to earn a lot; some to train ; some to enjoy life; some for the sake of it; some because they cannot do anything here

None of the reasons above inspire me to do the same as i am double sure that i wil have the best life here simple, uncomplicated- i dont need anything more , anything less

May be its too mediocre to think so ; but everyone's got to live on their own terms . I dont hold anything who go searching for greener pastures

I surely believe akkaraikku ikkarai pachhai (not ikkaraikku akkaraikku pachhai)

This had to be a reply by mail to a friend who asked me the question yesterday ; but its become a blog ( still she will  be only victim to read this)






1 comment:

Renita Rajan said...

So,that's the answer!
Thanks :)